I see you with my eyes....

Son-

I'm laying here in bed at midnight on a Friday night, thinking about you and how weird it is that you haven't woken up once since you went to sleep tonight. This is odd. I also had this thought that I want to make sure you know. You are the great joy of my life. I find so much delight in you. The garbled but coherent vocabulary you employ grows seemingly every second. The other day at the Zoo, you apparently said, per Ma Dub, "I see you with my eyes...Pen..guin" in a very menacing tone. The other day we were on a walk, and with you strapped to my back, I asked "Bear are you ok?" "da, i'm otay" "Bear, are you tired?" "No, doggy's tired, daddy's tired, I'm not tired". These are just a couple of the many wondrous two year old things you say, and I love it. I love it when you say thank you unprompted, I love it when you take a sip of juice and proclaim it to be "awetum!"or when you show off your "munaa" and flex your little arms. And I can't say enough how great it is to walk in the door and hear "oh hey diddy, diddy, sit DOWN!" while you slap a chair.

So I just wanted to say thanks for being great and thanks for being my son. You've saved my life, quite literally. Since I was forced three months ago to face the thought of not being around for you for the next 60 years, I've lost 33 pounds and gotten my blood pressure under control for the most part, though I'm still having to adjust medication. Apparently, high blood pressure is a thing for Nordean men, keep your eyes on that stuff, even now, I'm only 29. My goal is to be under 300 for maybe the first time in my 20's before I turn 30 in two months. Just 15 lbs to do that.

Back to the subject of you. It breaks my heart that we have someone else take care of you on a day to day basis, I wish that it was you and your mom at home doing fun stuff, but we're doing the best that we know how to do, and the Willards are pretty much family now anyways. I know that you're getting the best possible care with the most possible love besides being with me and your mom. I hope everything works out and you don't resent us forever. Time will tell I suppose. Oh, one last thing, will you hurry up and learn how to use a toilet already! Diapers are expensive and you pee on the floor when we let you run around neked. Figure it out!

Love you son, with my whole heart, that gets stronger every day

Diddy